BLERRRRGHHHH MIND BLANNNNNNNKKKKKKKKKK

thinking outloud doesnt work for me..
theres some things i just think i'll never ever share..

is it stupid that i make goals and forget abotu them? and so never complete them? LOL
remmebering back to a tiem i felt depresssed and was blogging.. and i said id make soem goals and try finish them to cheer myself up.. i dont remmeebr the goals.. and i cbf lookign for them and god knows if ive done any of them.. but what i think is if i really wanted to complete that goal.. if it was soemthign i was really aiming for that id rememebr it.. so im not an idiot.. there.. answered my own question :D

tried on my formal dress again today
first time since i bought it a couple of months ago
and it still fits
CHEEEEEYEEEEEHH!

check it

hahah i hear you can never find the same strand twice..
i jst did
you see.. my hair sall gross at the ends and soemtimes it knots itself
liekthe single strand amkes a signel knot
i found it
and put it down
then picked it up again
FOUDN IT

im guessing it cant be that hard to finda needle in a haystack then?
look for the shiny silver thing? or just jump in and feel aroudn until it pricks you?
but i duno if haystacks are prickly.. or shiny? oO never seen or touched one..

"what do you want from me?"
good question..

are there somethings
taht we're shit curious about
that we shoudlnt ever know..
coz then that means we know it
and thers nothign else to wonder about
and whats life without amazment magic and wonder? :)

i hate how eveyrhtigns become text now isntead of faace to face contact
and you cant tell emotions
or if someones lying or not
and then youre told youre stupid for being gullible
well its just a bunch of letters..
and soryr i trusted you..

anywayy.. its so stupid now.. thats why i still use those TB emotes.. coz then you can tell if im happy or not :)
its not TB
its how i add emotion to the conversation?

when ir ead some comments on facbeook.. ic ant tell if the person is annoyed or not or tryign to stir soemthign up or.. not.. or even joking.. or whatever.. gets annoying and its gettign to me =/

ahh the toilet..
dont you love those time syou just sit
in yrou won tight lil room
half naked
on a toilet seat
and an apiphone or life changing wahtever comes to you?

so alwasy being liked is a bad thing..
or thinking youve alywas been liked?

not beign up myself..
but when someones ever hated me.. someone else just took their place in my life..

does it matter to me so much what other poeple think of me?

should it?
is it bad to think like taht?
omfg. so many rhetorical quesitons..

ive never been bullied.
dont know what its like
wonder if it feels worse than i do now
being affected by only my own stupid thoughts
and not someone else's actions..

whats more powerful?

i dont care if you still read this or not
but i realised
i stopped having super happy moments
those fun moments your ememebr forever
and even as you reminise over them.. you cant help but laugh
yeah..
i stoped having those
when i stoped havng a real best friend

aww dont feel sorry for me.. im not tryign to sound depressed or aything
i still have fun with new friends and people i meet
but theres just that one person in my life missing
who isnt my boyfriend
who knows evyerthign about me..
who i really am..
more than i even know..

so, youve been the confident one
the loud one
everyone knows who you are
eveyrwhere youve been
your whole life
up til a point

in pirmary school.. everyone knew who i was not to mess with me and it was an awesoem atmosphere. at highschool now, even in yr 8 when eveyrone was kinda awkward and lost tryignt o find thier own social group, i didnt feel left out and people seemed to still recognise me. i never knew what it was like to be outcasted

not that last night was a bad thing or antyhing.. but it was the quietest ive ever been in a group of people..

i usually jst speak my mind.. but last night i was so intimidated abotu waht eveyrone would think of me that i just thought half the things i wanted to say and as i lay in a stupid uncomfy bed that night.. those thoughts were all i could think of..

all the conversations i couldve had..

a lil crush

all i ever wanted from my adventure to hongkong disneyland was to leave with a picture of snow white and me in my hands. :( but now that kisten stuart is playing snow white in teh new dark story remake (what is with all these darker versions of chidlish stories anyway?) I DONT LIKE SNOW WHITE NO MORE T_T

pst.. im still goan wear my snow white slippers tho.. czo they keep the toesies warm :)

easter hop-hop

i wana nibble on bunny ears

the chooclate kind...

you dirty bastard

http://sketch.odopod.com/users/52774 watch them. its fun :)

love how color brigns evyerhtign to life and lets the sun in

for example.. rainy day.. rainbow appears and BOOM SUNSHINEE
:)

as you hopefully can tell.. yes it was windy

my uncle got this fancy pantsy new camera for his 50th birthday. we went to a temple int eh hills near some nudist beach so its kidna secluded. i love how naatural the shots look.. cant even begin to compare them to my 5mp camera.. hells yeahh..

i wish i could talk to animals
oh what i frog would tell me about the flies they eat
i want to know what cats think
what horses think of racing
i wonder where a mouse goes or finds places to go
how to cockroaches feel without thier bodies?
i wonder what fish have to deal with in eveyrday life?
i wonder what its like hibernating and never pooping for a bear
i wonder what they think of the monolithic structures humans have put up
wha thtye think of s destroyign thier homes
if htey even nderstand that we are destroying them
or why?
i wonder how their brains dont think the way we do..

did i tell you yet?
but i have snow white slippers
they keep my tosies warm
when mother nature decides to chill them over

note to self.. get a turtle cake for 18th or diiiee

schum-h-iilllleeeyyyyy phaescezz
:D
:D :D
:D ;D :D
:D :D ;D ;D :D :D

i like to think im a philosophical genious
i cant even spell genious
and i dont plan on learnign to spell it

anywayy..

i liek to think im a philosophical genious
who doesnt know how to word thigns just right..

charities get so much money
not saying they are greedy
or that its a bad thing
but is half of it going to advertising?
if you really think about it..
small businesses cant afford tv commericals
but theres all these big events, posters, tv ads from teh events
that these cahrities host
wheres all teh money ceom from
adn how much of our actual donation goes to helping soemone?
our money could go to payign a doctor who helps a patient
doesnt fele as rewarding coz you want that help to go directly to the patient
and the doctor shoudl do it out of his own kindness
but i get that you haev to mkae a living

well my point is..
i dont think
the way the world is revolving now
works at all.

whats with all the hate on beiber and rebecca black?
you dont have to watch them
yo dont haev to listen to them
you dont haev to have anythign to do with them
and if your excuse is oh all these screamign fans are annyoign me..
blck them out
they dont haev to be a part of your life

why is thre so much hatign on those doign good
and nto enough on hitler?

but then again.. telling myself to smile instead of crying
makes me cry more when i cant coz it hurts that i cant be optimistic..

why do things have to be awkward?
poor awkward turtle.. all the work he has to do..
just laugh and it becomes humerous and all is better
and that poor turtle can relax
so its better for evyerone

when noones there..
all we can do is cheer ourselves up
coz its either smile
or cry
and crying uses up tissues
which are frm trees
so youre saving the environment
also, crying makes yoru clothes dirty
so then you have to wash them
so in not crying youre saving the environment double time
and the more you smile
the better the sun seems to shine

i got a new green tissue box coz i thought it would match my turtle tissue box cover
only to realise...
it gets covered in green anyway..
LOL

an annoying fact in life

how people have to try harder to get just as much out of soemthign as someone who didnt have to try as hard...

.

i like to be the optimistic one who cheers evyeroen else up when all else fails

noones there to be teh optimistic one for me though..

whos cheering me on?
i liek to act strong
but i need support sometimes.. im only human

.

my fucking itunes keeps picking the same songs
annoying..

.

isnt it cool how people only talk to you when they need soemthing
for thier benefit?
noone comes up to me anymore and just asks how are you? just to check up or seomthing
or maybe they are curious and we havtn talked in a while..

but then i guess that leaves it open for awkward conversation until one of you has to go do soemthign else and it ends there

ew..

kinda embarrased at my bad blogs lately
so im gona call it quits for a while
bye-ers :)

1234
i declare a thumb war
HI-YAH!

WOOOPERRRRRRSSS :D

HAPPPY 200th post guysss!!! :D:D:D:D:D

and here's a joke ijust thought up while brushign my teeth :D



guy1: oi dude look its a ninja
guy2: where?
guy1: exactly



BWHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHH 200 :)

yayyyerrrsss



i wish i had soemthign more important to say in an eventful post like this...

OH WORLD PEACE, RECYCLE, DONT KILL TREES, ANIMAL RIGHTs, GAY RGHTS, WOMENS RIGHTS, STOP WORLD HUNGER AND SMILE :)

hoooowwll

i feel like a lone wolf today
only.. lone wolves arent pro at maths
:)

and a third coz its a ncie number

Jackass..

here's some more

ASS-DICK-HOLEEEEEE

take this

POO FACE.

the standby

you know waht?
this year
im no leader
im not doing anything leadershipy like at all
im a team member
so im gona be a team member
not complain
and let the leaders do their way of leading

i guess my chances of being a leader are over?
so i didnt prove i was that great at being one
so that i didnt geet a position thsi year?

guesss i wasnt that great

lets sit back and watch the school leadership teams fall
but best of luck seriosuly guys
i want it to work out with or without me included.

but SEROUSLY IM A TEAM MEMBER INCLUDE ME IN SOEMTHING.. you know i can do good jobs of things.. but whatever...

UGGHH i dont liek this
i dont like not being able to do soemthing
when i can see a better way to do it
not necessarily better.. but
not being up myself
but.. i can see easier ways to go abotu thigns or explain things?
UGHH
i dotnk now ==

just gona sit back now..

i just snapped the arm off my bluetack man i made when i was bored and didnt want to do homework and he looks sad i swear..

what the title says ^

guess what??

that's



what..

dont you just hate it

gotta express this..
i try not to get excited about things
but theres soemthign inside of me that i cant control?
my feelings maybe..
that just get excited about things
lil thigns even
and then i have high hopes without even knowing it
coz half the time i dont know waht im feeling
then when those high hopes arent satisfied
i drop
out of the okay zone
lololololol...

but its a mean kinda inside thing that i cant control
dont know its there
then end up feeling like poo
:(
just hate it

peee-yew

ever notice how boys are just so stinky?
and when i say stinky.. its um.. like my new word to describe ew but funny but stinky but ew still but alright but ew and kinda.. ew things? you know?
when you hear me use it you'll get it :D

so anyway
ever notice how boys are all just so stinky?
or maybe its just the boys i hang around..
so odd..

its weird.. ive noticed soemthing
on a day i feel like i look good more people tlak to me
and on a day i feel crap.. less peopel talk to me
well maybe tahts jstu coz i have a smile on my face and that
makse people want to come up and give me a hug
but i duno..

why cant i jsut alwasy get taht hug?

ANYWAYYY
back to the stinky boys thing
yeah they are weird..
they will lecture me on how to be a girl..
they will then totally contradict themselves
they want me to do soemthign then 5 mines later somethign else
they demand attention
they need constant reassurance that they are men
just stinky overall..
hmm.......

yuuurrrkk-k

sexxxxxyyyyyyyyy

im gona buy me a mini cooper
paint it green
get a checkered green roof
she'll be my turtle baby <3

research project

here comes rant after rant as i try to finsih my research project :)
this isnt realy a rant..
but 300 words into my evaluation
and i have a stoamch ache and headache from bullshittign too much ><
POOO SACEEEEEEEEEEE

hair

so in my family of three girls with longer than what you can call short hair

we leave broken bits of hair on the floor, on towels, on brushes

yeah it sounds gross

but i think

if we swept it up everyday

i think we'd have enough hair to make a wig for a homeless blad guy

and he might be able to get a job

because people are juding and wotn accept a bald guy

i just want to help out :(

world record attempt

i rekon
i could beat
the world
record
for
kissing for a long time
its like 14 hours?
that doesnt sound like much
but id do it while sitting on a toilet
just in case :D
and eat and drink a lot before hand
14 hours? thats like just over half a day..
sounds do-able..

any candidates for help? ;D

justin bieber

beiber or bieber? im not gona google it to check..

LOL actaully i did

i just forgot rigth after it....

eveyrones tlaking about his new haircut and stuff

but i just think he needs to pluck his eyebrows

*shivers*

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

WOAHHH DEJA VU

DID I DO A POST ABOT THE ALPHABET ALREADY?! O_O
ohk i'll stop here :)

i like it big

i like big cars
i like big machines
i like big ice cream scoops
i like big hair
i like big bottles
i like it big
YEEEAHHHH

maths lingo

quadratics cubics derivatives limits squares linear equation sin cos tan cosec sec inverse proportional triangle pythagoras trigonomery phenomena opposite y-axis symmetry x-axis a third

my maths teacher told me mathematitions arent smart. they just use smart sonding words and so eveyrone thinks they are smart :) kinda true eheh its funny. i wonder if anyone uses these words in everyday language without it being directly related to maths?

LOLOL

a girl's best friend

sometimes all you need is your group of friends
some food and drinks
an open atmosphere where you feel you can say anything
and not be judged
to cheer you up

i believe a girl's best friend isnt diamonds..
but in fact their actual best friends
its what we all need
for that gossip/bitch session
just letting it all out
feels awesome
and clears yoru mind
clears your soul
its liek cleansing
kinda cool :D

really thankful for my friends today
thanks guuyyss <3

DID IT!

completed my first ionic equation EVER :D

and got it right

and understood it

and feel powerful

mwahahah :)

from now on.. call me butterfly

so hashan made up a new nickname for me :D im a butterfly!

it sounds pretty awesome.. they lived an awesome life..

eat for their whole life and turn out pretty after a few days sleep

NO WAY AND NO FAIR :O

but being called butterfly makes me feel like im free and that i can flyyyyyy~

weeeeeeeeeeee

random thought

im wearign shorts doign my maths with a pen coz tahts how youre supposed to do your maths GUYS! WITH A PEN!

anyway..

i get the random urge to draw patterns all over my legs

and now i wonder what it sliek to have a tattoo.. like a scar that never heals or a pen doodle that you cant wash off.. i dont think i'll ever get one

keh keh

penis.

year 12

blah blah expectaions balh balch
determines the rest of yoru life
blah blah make the most of it
blah the best year of yoru life
blahh
work hard form the beginning
blah blah no social life
blah blah growing up
blah blah work hard
blahhh YOUS HOUDL KNOW THIS FROM LAST YEAR
blahhh BLAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
T________________________________T

very unhappy with the beiginng of this year.. and its just goan get worse..

quick briefing of my overseas trip

vietnam was the first stop
-there are no birds there
-i rode on a motocycle
-daddy said he woudlnt buy me one
-went shopping and everythign fit me :D
-eveyrhtign is covered in a layer of dust
-pervs and more pervs but i felt good even though they looked weird..
-SO MANY FOOD STALLS OMG I WANT THEM IN ADELAIDE ITS AWESOME.. if yorue hungry at 2am.. they are open and selling YUMMY HOT FOOD! :D
-stayed in saigon and saw family :)

then i went to thailand
-COLOUURSSSSSSSSSS.. ommgg duuuuuudess! the colours are CRAZZYY its soo tropical and everything there is BRIGHT coloured or else it just looked VYER good compared to vietnam but still.. their buses and taxis are bright bright pink, green, yellow and bluue and i saw a purple bus :D SO AWESOME
-touched an elephant.. it was grossssssss
-got blessed good luck by a monk i didnt udnerstand but he gave s kinda bad luck for the rest of our trip..
-plane got delayed and stayed at a 5 star hotel for one night. felt liek a queen :)

then back to vietnam where we jst chilled for a day
then off to hong kong BOOYAHH :D
-from 40+degrees to 7degrees..
locals told us it was unusually cold for that time of year for the few days we decided to stay there.. LOL yayayy lucky us hey? hahaha
-went shopping
-went to hong kong disneyland and didnt get to see snwowhite :(
-went to ocean park- THE BEST FREAKIGN THEME PARK IVE BEEN TO!
-went to macao for one day.. its asian vegas duudes it was pretty and fancy and i coudlnt go in :(
-ferry ride to Guang ZHou for the ret of my trip

GUANGZHOU/china
-stayed with family and visted a LOT of family
-shopped
-shopped
-ate yum cha for breakfast
-shopped
-straightedned permanetly and dyed my hair :)
-shopped
-went to the actual city region and stayed with great aunty. in the city the old peopel are the cool peopel.. they catch busses and stay standing up if they still acn and they are all active playign badminton and hackysack in eveyr park we went to! old people there were awesome :)
-shopped :D
-got my period for christmas... very cheap santa..

THEN OFF TO SHANGHAIII YAHH :D
-sat on a bus the whole time driving frm city to city
-went to the china pavilion for the world expo.. which was HUUGEE AND SOO FREAKIGN AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE
-went other places im having mind blanks.. LOL :D

then back to guan zhou for more shopping
and we spent a week packing all our stuff.. LOL
and ended up buying more stuff and somehow stuffing it all into bags
and then went home with 7 sent off huge luggages and 2-3 carry ons each for the 6 peopel in ym family :D

it took me a week to clean out my wardrobe THREE times to fit in everythign i bought
and im proud
but want more.. LOL :D
now i need shoes.. hmm.. hehhe
wow logn post
BYYYYYYYYYYYYE!

so my lemon trees dying

eveyr asian has a lemon tree in their backyard
its not an asian house unless there is one
but my lemon tree has decided to die...
i dont knwo why tis dying
its just gone all yellow
and it shrivellign up :(
so bad coz its around chinese new year tiem that its dyign too..
:(:(:(
i wana give it a hug but it looks kinda gross and ants are on it..

i hope it survives :)
hang in there buddy :D

CHECK IT OUT

WOOAHH guyys im blogging again yay :D
are you as excited as i am?
i jus thave all these thoughts
and i rekon they are awesome enough to share
so imma blurt away :)