ahh the toilet..
dont you love those time syou just sit
in yrou won tight lil room
half naked
on a toilet seat
and an apiphone or life changing wahtever comes to you?

so alwasy being liked is a bad thing..
or thinking youve alywas been liked?

not beign up myself..
but when someones ever hated me.. someone else just took their place in my life..

does it matter to me so much what other poeple think of me?

should it?
is it bad to think like taht?
omfg. so many rhetorical quesitons..

ive never been bullied.
dont know what its like
wonder if it feels worse than i do now
being affected by only my own stupid thoughts
and not someone else's actions..

whats more powerful?

i dont care if you still read this or not
but i realised
i stopped having super happy moments
those fun moments your ememebr forever
and even as you reminise over them.. you cant help but laugh
yeah..
i stoped having those
when i stoped havng a real best friend

aww dont feel sorry for me.. im not tryign to sound depressed or aything
i still have fun with new friends and people i meet
but theres just that one person in my life missing
who isnt my boyfriend
who knows evyerthign about me..
who i really am..
more than i even know..

so, youve been the confident one
the loud one
everyone knows who you are
eveyrwhere youve been
your whole life
up til a point

in pirmary school.. everyone knew who i was not to mess with me and it was an awesoem atmosphere. at highschool now, even in yr 8 when eveyrone was kinda awkward and lost tryignt o find thier own social group, i didnt feel left out and people seemed to still recognise me. i never knew what it was like to be outcasted

not that last night was a bad thing or antyhing.. but it was the quietest ive ever been in a group of people..

i usually jst speak my mind.. but last night i was so intimidated abotu waht eveyrone would think of me that i just thought half the things i wanted to say and as i lay in a stupid uncomfy bed that night.. those thoughts were all i could think of..

all the conversations i couldve had..

a lil crush

all i ever wanted from my adventure to hongkong disneyland was to leave with a picture of snow white and me in my hands. :( but now that kisten stuart is playing snow white in teh new dark story remake (what is with all these darker versions of chidlish stories anyway?) I DONT LIKE SNOW WHITE NO MORE T_T

pst.. im still goan wear my snow white slippers tho.. czo they keep the toesies warm :)

easter hop-hop

i wana nibble on bunny ears

the chooclate kind...

you dirty bastard

http://sketch.odopod.com/users/52774 watch them. its fun :)

love how color brigns evyerhtign to life and lets the sun in

for example.. rainy day.. rainbow appears and BOOM SUNSHINEE
:)

as you hopefully can tell.. yes it was windy

my uncle got this fancy pantsy new camera for his 50th birthday. we went to a temple int eh hills near some nudist beach so its kidna secluded. i love how naatural the shots look.. cant even begin to compare them to my 5mp camera.. hells yeahh..

i wish i could talk to animals
oh what i frog would tell me about the flies they eat
i want to know what cats think
what horses think of racing
i wonder where a mouse goes or finds places to go
how to cockroaches feel without thier bodies?
i wonder what fish have to deal with in eveyrday life?
i wonder what its like hibernating and never pooping for a bear
i wonder what they think of the monolithic structures humans have put up
wha thtye think of s destroyign thier homes
if htey even nderstand that we are destroying them
or why?
i wonder how their brains dont think the way we do..

did i tell you yet?
but i have snow white slippers
they keep my tosies warm
when mother nature decides to chill them over

note to self.. get a turtle cake for 18th or diiiee

schum-h-iilllleeeyyyyy phaescezz
:D
:D :D
:D ;D :D
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i like to think im a philosophical genious
i cant even spell genious
and i dont plan on learnign to spell it

anywayy..

i liek to think im a philosophical genious
who doesnt know how to word thigns just right..

charities get so much money
not saying they are greedy
or that its a bad thing
but is half of it going to advertising?
if you really think about it..
small businesses cant afford tv commericals
but theres all these big events, posters, tv ads from teh events
that these cahrities host
wheres all teh money ceom from
adn how much of our actual donation goes to helping soemone?
our money could go to payign a doctor who helps a patient
doesnt fele as rewarding coz you want that help to go directly to the patient
and the doctor shoudl do it out of his own kindness
but i get that you haev to mkae a living

well my point is..
i dont think
the way the world is revolving now
works at all.

whats with all the hate on beiber and rebecca black?
you dont have to watch them
yo dont haev to listen to them
you dont haev to have anythign to do with them
and if your excuse is oh all these screamign fans are annyoign me..
blck them out
they dont haev to be a part of your life

why is thre so much hatign on those doign good
and nto enough on hitler?

but then again.. telling myself to smile instead of crying
makes me cry more when i cant coz it hurts that i cant be optimistic..

why do things have to be awkward?
poor awkward turtle.. all the work he has to do..
just laugh and it becomes humerous and all is better
and that poor turtle can relax
so its better for evyerone

when noones there..
all we can do is cheer ourselves up
coz its either smile
or cry
and crying uses up tissues
which are frm trees
so youre saving the environment
also, crying makes yoru clothes dirty
so then you have to wash them
so in not crying youre saving the environment double time
and the more you smile
the better the sun seems to shine

i got a new green tissue box coz i thought it would match my turtle tissue box cover
only to realise...
it gets covered in green anyway..
LOL

an annoying fact in life

how people have to try harder to get just as much out of soemthign as someone who didnt have to try as hard...

.

i like to be the optimistic one who cheers evyeroen else up when all else fails

noones there to be teh optimistic one for me though..

whos cheering me on?
i liek to act strong
but i need support sometimes.. im only human

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my fucking itunes keeps picking the same songs
annoying..

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isnt it cool how people only talk to you when they need soemthing
for thier benefit?
noone comes up to me anymore and just asks how are you? just to check up or seomthing
or maybe they are curious and we havtn talked in a while..

but then i guess that leaves it open for awkward conversation until one of you has to go do soemthign else and it ends there